Sunday, December 17, 2006

Uncertainty

I have decided to write again. I used to write on the happenings of my everyday life. When I look back, it brings back certain memories that I rather not remember. Hence, I decided to start afresh. The whole point of this is that I want to record down the turning point of my life where in future I can read back to see if I have make the right decision.

Uni life is coming to an end real soon (I hope). Another 6 months will be gone in the blink of an eye. What will happen after that...? I wonder. I have to start planning now. I want to apply for PR so that I can work in Australia but too bad I do not have enough points with my degree. So, what’s the next step? Go back to KL for good? To do Master? I wonder what the best solution is…

I remember a friend once told me this… “It’s like you are in a mist trying to find your way out...” I think it truly express my situation now. I have no idea which direction to go and where it will lead to.

This reminds me of a poem I learnt in school.

The Road Not Taken
By Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth:

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear:
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I –
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

I hope things will turn out alright for me.

Cheers,
pm